Hey everyone!!
I'm really REALLY sorry for disappearing into my cave again. You'd think that with all this quarantine going on that I would actually be writing.
Well, truth is, I am writing....on Wattpad. Which, I guess because it's Camp NaNo right now, is where I should be writing....
But I have suddenly realized that I've been holding out on you guys. For years now, I've promised, and promised, AND PROMISED YET AGAIN, that I was going to publish the gripe speech that fathered the idea of Shattered Chandlier in the first place.
For all my old readers - yes, this is the gripe speech in which I defend my Raoul shipper status.
And yes TODAY IS THE DAY which I will finally reveal it. Seems to be a good time, since things have been progressing in that particular story, LOL.
Oh wait, before I jump in, I should really explain what was behind this speech.
Back in 2017 (told you this poor baby was old), I was a senior in college taking a public speaking course. Not that I really needed the credits per se, but I needed the skills (always take a public speaking class when you can, guys. They are lifesavers.)
The second assignment of that class was called a gripe speech. Basically, it's a speech in which you outline a particular gripe and try to sway the audience to your point of view.
Now, Lia had introduced me to the Phantom of the Opera somewhat close to this time. (I think we've established the fact that I have lived under a rock for quite some time, nevertheless, it took me some convincing to watch this one). And let's just say I had some FEELINGS on the subject of Raoul vs. Phantom.
You see....well, maybe I'll just let the speech speak for itself. Enjoy!
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What is a successful love story without a knight in shining
armor? What is a good love story without at least 2 lovers competing for the
same girl? What girl doesn't swoon for…..
THE PHANTOM OF THE OPERA?????
Hello, my name is (Catherine Hawthorn) and I will be speaking to
you about the dangers of fandoms and of the worshiping of villains instead of
heroes, using the fandom surrounding the Phantom of the Opera as an example.
What is it with girls that adore the bad guys? When offered a
good, albeit a somewhat sappy, boring guy with unwavering adoration, they look
over him. But when a mysterious man shows up in the mirror, the first thing
that they think of is to go through it to a dark lair, without any thought of
the consequences! I don't know about any other girl in this room, but I don't think
I want my boyfriend to say to me “Your chains are still mine! You belong to
me!” Nor would I or any girl like it if we were forced to stay in a dark, cold
cellar surrounded by a lake 24/7. And come to think of it, I would like my
boyfriend to have a complete face, if you don't mind.
Then why do most girls in their right mind, when given
a choice, go for a disfigured, cold-hearted, cruel murderer such as the Phantom
of the Opera???
I mean, if I got a handsome guy such as Raoul, who's loved me
since childhood such as Raoul, is able to calm me down after being totally
terrified such as Raoul(and believe me, that is not easy!), who offers himself
as a rock to cling to in the storm of fear and darkness such as Raoul, who
fights for me when I am weak such as Raoul…...I'm going to go to him in a
heartbeat!
I've been in Christine's shoes. I know what it's like to come
against a spirit of darkness and be under his spell. I completely understand
the measures that she took to escape from the darkness. Most girls, however,
get caught up in the romance of the story and don't stop to think about what
they might be imagining themselves into. Do these hordes of girls understand
what is behind the mask entirely?
The Phantom's relationship with Christine is the very definition
of an abusive relationship. While there is no question that the Phantom loves
Christine (maybe too much) his actions reveal his tortured mind and soul. He
exploits her talents to further his own music career, seducing her at the same
time. He terrorizes Christine, making her live in fear of him (as proven by
half of the lyrics of the reprises). He jealously guards her, attacking any
person that even dares to lift his eyes to Christine. Their relationship even
started on a deception, her believing that he was the spirit of her father. If
that is not totally creepy, I don't know what is…..
The least of what this psychopath does, in this society,
would have landed him in jail or at least a restraining order. Sure, if you
know his story, you would know that Erik (oh yes, he does have a name, it's
just not well known) he deserves compassion. He's suffered a lot in his life. But
a lot of his actions (including but not limited to, murder, assault, and
kidnapping) are inexcusable, and his temperament is bent towards hatred and
cruelty. Would Christine's love fixed that? I don't think entirely. And I don't
think any other girl would be any more successful either.
Then why are hordes of girls still in love with this
middle-aged creep?
I asked my fellow Phan, Cecilia, for some illumination on the
subject. She told me that “We all feel that Erik is misunderstood. All he wants
is someone to spend the rest of his life with. So I guess we all want to love
Erik cause we all love him for what he is. I have nothing against Raoul! Erik
has no one, so we love a little more.”
As maddening as it sounds, her comments get to the meat of
the problem: feminine nature itself.
A spirit of adventure does not only belong to the male sex.
We females just have a different sense of adventure. We seek to conquer hearts,
against all odds. We love nothing better to love the unloved, and to convert
the heart from hate. We are very persistent and sacrificial creatures, giving
everything to see our work through.
There's just one itsy bitsy snag…..we tend to go over our
heads. We get caught up in the romance of the situation, deciding on emotion
and feeling. Hence, when dealing with our hearts, we make very illogical
decisions. But when those scales of reality do fall, they fall hard, and we
take it hard. And woe to the woman who cannot change her situation and is faced
with a lifetime of misery because of the foolish choice she made as a girl.
Here's another problem: a lot of girls are dreamers. Building
castles in the air is a favorite pastime of ours. Fictional characters are
often the subject of intense adoration. Hence the formation of fandoms. Fandoms
can become especially dangerous when the person in said fandom lets it skew or
worse rule their entire life and their mindset. I'm fairly sure, judging from
what I know of my friend Cecilia, that in reality, she would not go through the
mirror into the Phantom's arms. However, the abundance of memes that seem to
downplay Raoul and glorify the Phantom is a bit alarming to me.
So what can we take from this twisted tale that I have just
wrought for you?
For one thing, don't let a fandom skew your thought process.
Use your head when your heart is getting out of control.
Men, go higher not lower. Nothing is worth more to a woman
than her security. Be a hero, no matter what you are up against. In my book,
heroes get much more respect in the long run.
Ladies, look hard at the priorities in which you seek a man
and the risks that you take before entering into any sort of dealing with a man
– especially a troubled one.
And ladies...set limits on your heart. Believe me, a lifetime
of abuse is not something that I would recommend as the first choice. While
womanly influence is certainly one of the most powerful weapons on the earth,
it does have it's limits. Yes, the
rewards are great if you do change his heart, but are you willing to pay a
heavy price?
***************************************************************************As I'm reading this over again and remembering what I was feeling and why....I've suddenly remembered things that put some of this into context.
Two summers previous to this, I was a 4-H staff member for Penn State Extension. I'm not normally this specific, but in this case I need to. After a really notorious sex abuse scandal by the Penn State football coach Jeff Sandusky, Penn State made a huge restrictive crackdown on youth programs. Besides the extensive background checks and restrictions on volunteers, staff had to go through extensive training on recognizing signs of physical, verbal and sexual abuse. It was NOT pretty stuff.
Because of this training....I saw how abusive the Phantom's treatment of Christine really was from the get-go. Lia couldn't understand it at the time, and to be fair, I couldn't explain my position to her. I just KNEW it was wrong, and I couldn't get behind it.
It was at this time too that I was discovering the hidden meanings behind double language and recognizing impure ideas in songs. It was like a tearing of a veil - I couldn't un-see the images and pretend that they weren't there. That's why I can't listen to "Music of the Night" and "Past the Point of No Return" anymore.
Watching a *legal* copy of POTO's 25th on YouTube because of COVID-19, I've realized that I am a *little* more sympathetic to the Phantom. I can understand his pain, which is more than what I felt when I wrote this. I will also admit that I understand Christine's moral dilemma too, and wonder if I would also be in the same boat if I was in her place.
*sees reference and facepalms*
But even so, every word that I wrote in that speech, I still believe. Whole-heartily. At best, Phantom of the Opera is a cautionary tale.
And that's what I hope to show in Shattered Chandelier.
Phew, that was a mouthful. What are your thoughts on Phantom vs. Raoul? What personal fictional gripes do you have? Chat with me in the comments!
Scribbingly yours,
Catherine












